I'm a 50 year old mother of 3 children and 2 grandchildren. I've been on a spiritual quest throughout my adult life. When I was 31 I started to learn how to listen to my inner voice. I had been taught that I couldn't trust that voice. As I have learned to listen to it God has led me many places. Places I never knew I would be. This listening has led to healing for myself and my children. This healing has led me to where I am in my life. I am grateful for that.
I have thought about writing my story for years. Several people along my life's journey have suggested to me to do that. Fear of what I was going to write about kept me from sharing my story to all but a few people I trust. I had the story in my head for over 20 years and in Jan 2011 the words started coming and just kept coming. By October the words were all out. This process has been very freeing for me. I am grateful to God for his help in my writing. I feel guided by God to do this blog. I am enjoying writing it and hope you are enjoying it as well.
I created this blog to discuss and share how one can go through traumas and tragedies in life and come out the other side. "If we don't know our history we are doomed to repeat it." George Santayana, The Life of Reason Vol.1, Reason in common sense 1905-06
It seems we have similar stories. Thus, I am on a similar journey. I have also been encouraged to put my story into words. Instead I have been trying to avoid the reality of it. Living life as a somewhat whole person is so wonderful (after years of a hellish existence) that is is tempting to want to try to forget. But, I know God allowed it all, and then rescued me by his own hand, for a reason. I am feeling stirred inside with a mighty new righteous anger that I believe is coming from him. I am enraged at the thought of what pedophiles are getting away with as well as the ignorance of those who don't even begin to understand what these dear precious children will go through in their journey. The children abused by the bus driver in Indiana were children I knew personally. I also had met the bus driver on more than one occasion. This hits very close to home. Please pray that find the strength to fight the good fight for those who need voices like yours and mine.
ReplyDeleteI am so moved by your willingness to stop by and post. I completely understand what you are saying about trying to avoid the reality of the abuse and being a somewhat whole person after surviving what we have survived. I put telling my story off for over 20 years. And I completely believe that God had a strong hand in my ability to find the words. Don't push the words if they are meant to come they will. I am glad that you are feeling the presence of God in your feeling anger about what pedophiles do. It amazes me the amount of damage these (I can't find a nice word) deviants do to the lives of children. My children have to wrestle with what I have survived. Some days this is really upsetting to me and I give into my tears. Thankfully as they have gotten older and have asked questions and I have shared my sadness with them. They have been able to tell me that they are proud of me and are grateful that I was able to survive what I have. They have told me not to feel sad for them. They have been afforded more then I. They have a mother who would die for them. God is good. Please feel free to stop by and post whenever you would like. I will pray for the children harmed by the bus driver. I pray that we keep up the diligence in fighting the good fight and that we never forget that with God all things are possible. God bless you and I am so sorry for what you have survived.Rosie
ReplyDeleteHi,my name is Michael,just a comment on the Austin Kelly caretaker paedophile in Liverpool, I was one of the abused boys,another boy commited suicide on Sunday,the pain never stops,he was so traumatised and couldn't see a future,Kelly received a sentence of 442 years but there concurrent so he will serve half of a 13 and a half year sentence,in total 6 years 9 months,God Bless
ReplyDeleteSomehow I doubt God would lead you to post slander and lies about people. You are no expert on this subject, you are a fraud.
ReplyDeleteI feel very strongly that what I am doing is guided by God. Telling the truth about those who sexually abuse children is important. Harming a child is never okay. When a child is sexually abused they receive a life sentence.
ReplyDeleteIn reply to "Somehow I doubt God would lead you to post slander and lies about people. You are no expert on this subject, you are a fraud."
ReplyDeleteWell look how strong Rosie is. Whatever/whoever helps her to do what she is doing shows that she is courageous and strong-willed. Why is she a fraud? It is always easier to offend the one who cannot defend her/himself, right?
Thanks for defending me and what this blog stands for. I really appreciate that. That comment is from a person who is very upset with me for telling the truth. Some people don't like the truth and choose to bully and harass. I had to get a no stalking order against the person to stop the bullying. I hope you have a wonderful day. Come back anything. Rosie
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